I couldn’t get enough! The session was suppose to last 45 minutes, but Rebecca knew how excited I was and she continued on for about an hour and twenty minutes until she was literally exhausted. But it wasn’t enough… I wanted more! Rebecca suggested I wait about 6 months for things to settle in and then make another appointment – but there was no way I could possibly wait that long… Was she crazy? I just spent the last 80 minutes talking to my dead mother and she wanted me to wait 6 more months!!? I called her a few days later and booked another appointment.
I started preparing a list of questions for my second session because I didn’t want to get caught up in all the emotion and forget to ask about certain things. Rebecca had a very long waiting list and I didn’t want to miss this opportunity.
My second session with Rebecca was even more incredible. And what was truly incredible, was that during the session, my mother answered all my questions before I even asked them! I found out more about my mother in this session than I had known about her while she was alive. In fact, we were even able to do some very intense family therapy to begin healing old wounds between my mother and father who had also passed some years before.
My mother and I were now bonding in a way that we had never been able to do while she was alive. We expressed our regrets, our frailties, our missed moments of opportunity and connection, and most importantly, our undying love for each other that was now more alive than ever.
But the most amazing revelation, was when she told me that her Alzheimer’s disease was a situation completely self-created. She had been harboring so much anger and resentment, mostly toward men, that she had finally come to a point where she shut down completely. She had trapped herself inside her mind and body in such a way where she could no longer be distracted by superficial external events.
She explained that while she was physically and mentally degenerating from this horrible disease, her higher self was helping her to work through the pain, anger, and bitterness she had been holding on to her entire life. And by the time she took her final breath of life and crossed over, she had in fact released most of her prior baggage and flew freely to the other side, soaring through the sky like a bird released from it’s cage.
But as I sat there trying to comprehend the complexities of this extraordinary insight on her disease, I noticed there was still one question on my list that my mother did not answer. She was shocked at the question when I asked it and didn’t want to answer at first. She had been trying to hide this information from us her entire life, but my mother finally answered the question and revealed the truth that she had been molested by her father.
She went on to further explain how the breast cancer she developed in her early forties, had manifested from the guilt and shame she had silently carried from being molested as a child.
Now the pieces to the puzzle were all beginning to fall into place, as the root cause of all the anger and resentment in her life was finally exposed. My perspective of my mother had instantly changed and I came to love and appreciate her in a way that had never seemed possible before.